Time Elapsed

It's been a long time since my last blog. Life swept me up and took me to places that are new to me. I cannot believe the change in myself that has happened over the last few months. I feel more excited, alive, and capable than I have in ten years. It's amazing to me how much control you gain when you don't seek it. Letting go is so freeing. I feel embodied by a whole new spirit. I don't just breathe in air now.....I breathe in life, every moment. I spent much of my life rushing to get to the next moment, never accepting and being in the moment that is. I am so fortunate to have changed in time to be fully present for what will now be the best years of my life, not by luck or circumstance, but by awareness and contentment of what is.

Breathe

Going through the cycle of the emotion may be easier, but it is never the answer. Step out of that cycle and you will begin to breathe again. After all, what is living without breathing....but dying.

It Comes and Goes

My mind fades in and out in ways I cannot control.  Sometimes it seems so raw and fresh, coming from places I don't recognize.  Other times it seems still and silent, having to be confronted as to it's reason for such hibernation.  It's flow, though sometimes completely stagnant, always seems to move again as soon as I am without pen or device to capture it.

Reflection

It is so true that someone's personal space is a direct reflection to their inner state of being. Look around you.......it's true.

When you take on the task of getting to know yourself, it can be a little overwhelming. Sometimes you find much more than you thought was there. Sometimes you realize that it could be very dangerous to be completely who you are. Sometimes you find out that you are capable of more than you thought......but that's not always a good thing.

Stillness Between Words

I started something new today. While people were expressing themselves with words today, I payed as much attention to the silent stillness between the words as much as the content. It was an amazing realization for me. It made me relax into what was being said....as well as what wasn't. The stillness came to mean as much as the content, if not more. Actually, I found myself hanging on the edge of every silence instead of every word. I realized that is was then that I was most present.

Do not thy deceive thyself.....no web is there harder to untangle than that which thou hast weaved within.